Salutations.
My name's Jonan,
I'm an 18 year old with the lungs and liver of a 70 year old.
If by any unfortunate(for you) chance,
you get to know me more intimately,
you will find that I:
am quite the cynical little shit
am rather lazy,that's what everyone tells me anyway.
prefer night so much more over the day that I've made a few owl friends.
experiment with the stupidest things possible and still think I am reasonably intelligent.
have an ectoplasmic look during classes.
change brands of cigarettes as much as a girl changes clothes.
am an asshole in my own right,if you know what's good for you,you won't get close.
have an email address;jonan_yip@hotmail.com.

Misery loves company which is why I'm never alone. Don't say I didn't warn ya.

I WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT, I MISS YOU, I MISS YOU SO.

Eh I feel really fucking tired manzzz, I think the fatigue is taking it's toll on me.

I might be falling too deep into the abyss to stop sigh.




Sometimes the things people say really cut to the bone. They stick their cruel, little barbs inside of your head and worm their way down to your stomach. Then the sick, nauseating feeling begins and the Devil leans across the table to whisper insidious, belittling caresses into your ear. You block it out and to your surprise it works! But only for a moment, you get a feeling like how it's supposed to hurt but it doesn't, like a paralyzed man touching a hot stove.

Finally, the lump in your chest(NOT THAT LUMP LA) moves up to become the lump in your throat and it escapes your throat perhaps as a whisper, a stifled cry or even just the gnashing of your teeth as knuckle hits concrete.

After that, your mom walks in and slaps you over the head to be quiet and stop being a pussy idiot.

Yeah, basically what words can do to someone in a nutshell, just 26 letters arranged and rearranged to dazzle,delight and belittle your soul.

Chew on this like gum people.

So don't let anyone scare you, you'll know that I'll protect you always; Through the thick and thin, until the end.



I wonder why sometimes I loathe myself so much.

Inexplicable feeling, I need to pop down some prozac.

I can't relax or even oversleep.

I think I'm quite an idiot.

And I wonder all my sentences start with an 'I'.

Must be really drunk/high.

On the other hand, if you irk me one more time, I might just try to destroy you on the inside and the outside. I'll do it subtly, you wouldn't even know what was happening. People who fuck with my friends or loved ones get fucked right back.

After all, it takes a thief to catch one.



From every source of light, there will be a shadow cast.

If only for you to embrace the light, I will walk the shadowed path.

This is the only way.

And I will make you smile, no matter WHAT.

Someone please ask me if I want to perform in some HK drama okay? :D



I understand what being numb means now.

Annoying how this always happens so suddenly, but it follows with a wave of relief, like the exaltation of a mainline junkie when the morphine hits.

It's like someone has shut down the power to my heart.

And I can't turn it back on.

But it feels good! :D

K I sound like C3PO from Star Warz brrrr.



This is not a movie, things just ain't the same as my favourite video.

I went through a million choices, I listened to a million voices and they said,

Don't let me down, they said, don't let me down again.

But I'm just a countdown to the disappointment, I'm yours tonight.

Still, next to you's a very nice place to go.

AND HOW DO I STOP TYPING IN ITALICS KNNCCB LOL.




Sometimes a strong heart and a willingness to die to protect just isn't enough.



I'm not supposed to be afraid. All my life, I've grown up with an instinct to mask my fear or to even banish it completely. I won't lie now that I'm not.

I'm tired and afraid.

This has been the scariest rollercoaster I've been on and it's twists and turns never seem to end even just when you thought that it was smooth sailing for the moment. On the other hand, it's been the most exhilarating ride I've been on and has never failed to leave me breathless.

I have learnt however, that my value ain't worth shit.(Some of you assholes shouldn't further confirm this HAHA.) Cause guys like me are a dime a dozen and we're a touch, overrated.

The shadowed path tempts me back with it's fast-living allure but I am using every cell in my body to resist it.

I feel cold. Not to mention, stupid.(which seems to happen alot)

And it's not because of the air-conditioning either.

"Though I walk in the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me and cause I've been there and fucking back!"- Psalms 23:4 (amended version)



SEX GOD YAHHH says:
jonan remember
i am non-existent
all these dreary rain clouds still bother me. says:
OK
you are a stealth fighter
SEX GOD YAHHH says:
just another fucking good pool player
thats all
keep it low
all these dreary rain clouds still bother me says:
FUCKING ACTION

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SEX GOD YAHHH says:
i had to clean my nipple hair
all these dreary rain clouds still bother me. says:
dude
you should seriously
shave
SEX GOD YAHHH says:
yes i cut
all these dreary rain clouds still bother me. says:
your fucking
SEX GOD YAHHH says:
i know
all these dreary rain clouds still bother me. says:
nipple hair
SEX GOD YAHHH says:
i cut
hahaha
i cut
all these dreary rain clouds still bother me. says:
it's damn long
SEX GOD YAHHH says:
i just try not too
IMAGINE
all these dreary rain clouds still bother me. says:
can tie ribbon in the middle of your chest
SEX GOD YAHHH says:
I CONTINUE CUTTING
40 YEARS OLD
WTF WILL BECOME OF MY NIPPLES
all these dreary rain clouds still bother me. says:
LOL
SEX GOD YAHHH says:
HIDDEN
all these dreary rain clouds still bother me. says:
HAHAHAHAHAHAH
OMFG
EPIC
SEX GOD YAHHH says:
CROUCHING PENIS HIDDEN NIPPLE

PETER YOU NEVER FAIL TO AMAZE.